Revealing

John 14,21-26 (4/21/2008)

Whoever has my commandments and observes them is the one who loves me. And whoever loves me will be loved by my Father, and I will love him and reveal myself to him." Judas, not the Iscariot, said to him, "Master, (then) what happened that you will reveal yourself to us and not to the world?" Jesus answered and said to him, "Whoever loves me will keep my word, and my Father will love him, and we will come to him and make our dwelling with him. Whoever does not love me does not keep my words; yet the word you hear is not mine but that of the Father who sent me. I have told you this while I am with you. The Advocate, the holy Spirit that the Father will send in my name--he will teach you everything and remind you of all that (I) told you.

Many believe in God. But this does not mean all of them have faith in HIM. Some just believe in God’s existence – no more, no less. Meanwhile, there are those who believe and have faith in HIM, yet they do not practice what God tells them to do. So what difference does it make from agnostics and those who just believe in God period? God is revealing Himself through Jesus, yet we are too preoccupied to notice it or we ignore HIM. Nevertheless, God is giving us a chance to correct our wrong ways by sending His Holy spirit to remind us His teachings. He sends the Holy Spirit in order for us to remember that He is just beside us ready to accept and forgive us. God always finds ways to reach out to us and in return, we should try our best not to keep ourselves far away from Him.

I had a conversation with a friend last night. After it ended, I kinda felt bad for the things we talked about. I don’t know why, maybe because I couldn’t let go of the past. For me, the past is a serious matter - especially those unresolved ones. What I mean is, the past is my basis for my decisions in the future.

I have so many words left unspoken hidden inside me. Yet I don’t have the courage to tell everything. I know I have many friends. But I’m not the type who really reveals herself to friends, even to those who are very close to me. After all, everybody wears masks - different masks for different situations. Sometimes, I know I wear a mask even if I’m alone. But at some point, there’s something in me that wants to take off all the masks I’m wearing. Eventually, I found a friend who I thought I could reveal my true self; I could show who I really am - uncovered. That’s what I thought.

You were so busy making new friends that you didn’t even bother to look back and notice that you’re leaving someone behind. Someone who really needed you as a friend more than anything else. I admit, at first I was jealous. But then, I realized that it wasn’t just jealousy. Hay.. it really hurts reminiscing unresolved pasts. Maybe it was also my fault. I secluded myself from my other friends and depended only on one.

God is so perfect that even if people are ignoring HIM, he still reaches out to them and ready to accept them without looking back at the past. I wish I could have God’s courage (I don't know if this the right term) to let go of the past..